In my bag 08.12.13

Since I am going to be starting school in like two weeks, August 19th!! I thought it would be fun to share what my purse has been carrying. I have been using the same purse all summer and I am so glad that it's held up. Course then again, it is a target purse, even if I did thrift it. {similar}

Coffee & Conversation: Strong Belief

Coffee & Conversation

 Question: What is something you strongly believe in but maybe don't speak up about often? Why do you believe this and what causes you to keep quiet about it?


This is a great question.When I first started this blog, I used to talk about what I strongly believe in. Then over time I started fazing it out then suddenly I just stopped altogether. Maybe you can guess what it is?


Something that I strongly believe is having a relationship with God and Jesus and allowing the Holy Spirit to fill you.  That's right I am a "Christian", if you will. Some of you might have already known but for my new readers it might come as a shock. 

I stopped talking about Him almost a year ago. At that time I got really frustrated at Him and I was mad at myself. I was going through alot; failing school, my brother in the hospital and more. I just felt like he wasn't listening to my prayers. I felt like God walked away from me. I became so confused as to why. 

Months and months passed by and I still carried my anger towards God with me. I stopped going to church. My devotional that I was writing got halted. My prayers felt like I was talking to a wall.  I felt like I was in a relationship with someone that already left. So I walked away. 

Lately, I starting to feel my anger fade. I am starting to realize that He never left. That the reason I didn't feel Him was because I was doing everything for me. I wasn't doing anything for Him. He was there and talking to me but I threw up a wall and decided not to listen.

A year later, I am still working on getting my communication back with God. He knows I am not perfect, which is a huge blessing. Over that year that I walked away, He taught me many lessons; more then I wanted to admit. I hated most of them but He has his point. The whole time He was softly whispering "in my time, child" and that was the huge reason I was mad. I wanted Him to do it in my time. I am still working on getting the relationship I had with Him and working on opening up with Him so that He can fill my empty holes. It's not going to be easy to let go but I know that in the end He will whole care for me more then anyone else. 

Now, I am not saying that you should believe in Him. I understand we are all different. Although, God loves you and wants you as his child, I get it. I also am not going to write about Him in every post because I am still working on my relationship with Him. One day I might, but for now I am keeping this blog mostly "religion" free. 

That being said, I can hear some of you "Well if you believe then shouldn't you be winning those people that don't?" Yes, I should but I don't think BLASTING his name everywhere is going to win anyone.I am not the one condemning them, that is God's job. My job is try. I believe deeply in prayer, that is what I am good at. I am still praying for those that aren't saved to realize that they need God, yet only they can make that choice. I am here when they are ready to accept God as their father. 

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1 Year Blogiversary thoughts

I find it hard to believe that one year has come. (I am celebrating with a giveaway) .I have yet still so much that I want to learn and share on this little blog. When I first this blog, I didn't think I would be where I am. I didn't think that I would have followers, readers or friends. I am incredible grateful to everyone the helped me great to where I am today. This coming year I only want to improve. I want to improve my blog, myself and anything else. I hope to one day get my own dot com site and/or buy a professional design. 

Hope you stick around with me for another year. <3

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Coffee & Conversation: Social approval

Coffee & Conversation

 Question: How important is social approval to you? 

When I first saw this question I though what an easy question but then I got to thinking. Social approval. I know what approval is but what about social. Does this question mean social as the ones closest to you? What about social as your peers/co-workers? Or in does this question mean people you don't know by encounter? Or does it go as far society itself? With question come out like that then it changes the answer, doesn't it.


I think it safe to say that many of would say no we don't need approval of friends, that's what friends are for but can you believe that I had a friend that only had me around to show off how much better she was. She was my "best friend" yet she only treated me as tool. As way to fanult how good she was compared to me. She wasn't the only friend I had like that either. I finally got away from her. I hope for her happiness but not compared to me. I know we are all different and that not everyone is going like me or you but approval isn't really something you should base your friendship on. Though, because of this, I realized that maybe deep (reallllllllly deep) we search for approval of the ones closest to us. Maybe. It's something I can't answer for you but maybe that is what makes friends so close, they approve of your silly little ways.

I want to pose an answer to the last question I asked, I think this one sums up my answer for ALL the questions. Or does it go as far as society itself? I believe so. You want to prove that you are a working, sane and capable citizen. If you have ever been in jail, then you know how valuable this since of approval is. We are all given the chance to show we are approved by our government when we are able to freely work anywhere. When I was talking to James, he said no. He didn't care but I don't think he saw it the way I did. He was thinking of America the people. I was think of America the land of the free, American the land of chances. So although, we might not care what people think of us as individuals we want to at least show our country that we are stable and capable members working for the greater good of country.